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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 04:19

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

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I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I don,t even have a pension.

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I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

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We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Why do I feel worthless most of the time?

She loved him until the end.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

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One cannot live in the past .

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

My family never makes their pension either.

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He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

I couldn’t, believe it.

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I never cut or harmed myself..

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

She was in good health!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

This is soul school!.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I was 9 years of age.

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You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Especially a lifetime of it.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

Im still living with it.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Who then, do I blame.?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And who doesn’t know suffering?

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

So, i spoilt her more .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

What did i know ?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She wouldn,t have been !

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

It was going to be , some day.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

But it wasn’t much.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But, we were locked up after school.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

All the time i was locked up.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I was seconnd youngest,

She married twice! .

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

She found it foreign!.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I think the readers, may guess!

I waited trembling.

I will be 64.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

He resisted the act ,that day.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Would this be the day?

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I write beautiful poetry .

The only rule us 5 kids had .

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

When she asked me how she looked .

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Comes on , in middle age.

Was to survive, this bastard.

So whats the point in blame.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

My life is so biszare .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Put me off passion for life!!

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

We all went to grammer schools

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Ive learnt so much.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I was scared of men, in general

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He knew the spot.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

I said to her

I know ,a lot about trauma.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

We were not on the streets..

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I could never make a relationship work though!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I was very sick at this time too.

(And it was in our own minds.)

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I have no regrets .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

But ive been too sick for many years..

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

And i lived it daily.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He was dying to do it , i knew.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.